Living precariously!! Can I get any more serious!!

It has been a long and eventful week since my last blog which seems like ages ago.


As I mentioned last time I was dating two seperate guys, Guy No 1 and No 2 (I know my imaginative names astound you lol) and I had a date with Guy No 1 planned for the weekend. We met casually at the fountain in York, outside the Disney shop for those who don't know. Yet again, I had to decide where to go (this frustrates me), ending up at a local pub where No 1 ordered me a coffee, which was sweet as he didn't need to ask what I wanted (showed he'd been listening). The date flew as we chatted about our interests and got to know each other more, I start to think about what would happen if things went further with us, could I actually be in a relationship with him? After our coffee we decide to go for a little walk where things start to go weird, he tells me he needs to go looking round charity shops for his Halloween costume. Now not that there is anything wrong with this (although totally not my scene) I don't think this is something you do on a date, what do you think? I think he notices my disappointment and quickly decides to go for something to eat. The date ended well.....

The night to meet Guy No 2 came last night, I was really looking forward to this date as we had history, we knew each other and I really liked him at college. He texts me he is on his way, my insides twitter with excitement, I make sure my hair is perfect, smell like a posh boutique and have obviously flossed and breath minted (just in case haha). We meet and he is just as I remember but a lot hotter and more stubble!! We decide to go for some food after keeping the night pretty casual, a nice casual restaurant where we can chat and get to know each other, well that was the plan!! I don't know if he was nervous but he would not stop talking all night, even during mouth fulls (eew) and I don't think he asked me 1 question all night!! I like the guy he and he seems fun but I don't know if I can be with a guy who is more needy than myself!! After dropping him off though I really wanted to snog him, which must be a good sign, or maybe it was just so I could shut him up for a few seconds?

Since date number 1 we haven't really spoken that much, not texting since Tuesday so I kinda feel that may answer my question but what do you think? Do you think Guy No 2 was just nervous or should I ditch him? Who should I pick, or should I just continue until I have made my mind up, or my mind is made up for me? Help please, I just don't know if I can trust my self to make the right decision right now?


Ah....just got a text from Guy No 1 asking how I am, maybe its not over between us?

Till next time.......

Long time no speak!! New dilema eeek!!

The plan to write one of these weekly completely went out of the window, since it was May I last wrote one lol (Apologies if anyone was getting their weekly fix of my life)


Since I last wrote me and Guy* have ended (don't all cry at once), something to do with us being incompatible? To be honest he just beat me to it as I was going to end it the day later....don't like to be beaten to it!!!

So really you guys have not missed much in the last couple of months, however a new situation has occurred which inspires my new blog post. Dating two guys at the same time?? What do I do?

Basically, I met up with the first guy, Guy No 1 (I might tell you his name later on), and we went on a great first date. We had so much in common and he was really cute and definately the best looking guy I've been on a date with. I still managed to play it cool even though I just wanted to kiss his delicious looking lips. Then all of a sudden Guy No 2 adds me on facebook, he is a guy I met at college and (this was before my body transformation) we both never had the confidence to speak to each other. I've arranged to meet Guy No 1 this weekend for drinks but also arranged drinks with Guy No 2 next week. Is this wrong? Am I hurting the guys or will I eventually end up hurting myself? I know I will eventually have to make a choice but I somehow get the feeling that what I am doing is wrong, but maybe this is just how gay guys have to do it to make sure we get the right guy?


What do you think? Am I in the wrong and should end it or should I just see what happens? Please comment and let me know what you think and hopefully come back next week to find out what I do and how the dates go??

Till next time....

Now I know I usually blog every Sunday but with it being the bank holiday I got a bit confused with my days  (probably due to the large quantities of alcohol consumed) therefore I'm doing this on a Monday...sorry for any inconvenience caused. Who am I kidding, is anyone actually bothered?

This week I saw Guy* again, twice in fact, which I am happy to report going very well. I write this whilst listening to Mumford and Sons which is officially my album of the week/ moment (bit late I know). Anyway, Guy* took me out for lunch to a pretty, if basic, bistro in York which was his idea and he thought I would love it. Firstly, I usually like bistro's but this one just wasn't very good but the fact that Guy* chose the restaurant and took charge was really sweet and just hasn't ever happened to me before. Usually I have to do all the planning and for a guy to arrange the date was nice and unexpected. Now I was going to pay as I owed him but once I had got back from the bathroom (freshening myself up obviously) he had paid the bill, another first time for me!! Now, I am not one to not pay for anything but to have a guy want to buy me dinner is amazing and just makes me want to like Guy even more!! After our dinner we went for drinks, which admittedly I may have had a few too many of, although I like to think I kept my dignity, although I do recollect dancing and singing the entire chorus to 'S&M' by Rihanna which may have been a slight subconscious slip on my behalf oooppssyy!!  After our drunken date I felt all went well but recently he has been quiet and not really text as much as usual, I hope my singing didn't put him off as I do actually really like him....what should I do?

After the recent political debates relating to Gay Marriage I thought I would try to put a bit more of a serious side to my blog. Attitude Magazine always seem to have a un-bias view, well as fair as a gay magazine can be, to the whole debate (http://www.attitude.co.uk/) and I do understand and listen to the opposition to gay marriage but I am against the religious arguments that keep being pushed into our faces. For a start, yes it does say in some part of the bible that it is wrong for a man to lie next to another man but it also says adultery is wrong and don't get me started on the catholic churches attitude to their sex scandals and equality of the sexes. Now I have no problem with religion and do envy those who have a belief in something they can't actually see, but don't be hypocritical and if pick and chose which parts of the bible we should practice. God is all loving supposedly? Religion shouldn't be a divisive force but surely one to unite people? Now I'm not saying I am the most knowledgeable person on the issues but I hope that people could be more open minded to the debate and not automatically rush to judge or criticize something they do not fully understand.

I hope that more people start to read this blog, any ideas would be welcome as I am happy to do on your blogs and ideas. As usual this blog is full or my ramblings or nonsense but I try to keep it light hearted and funny. I heard an interesting tweet the other day which went something along the lines of after the gay marriage debate is over and the law is passed there are no other big fights for the gay community but I'm sure there will always be something. What do you think? What's the next big fight? After all you can't change people's attitudes no matter what laws are passed so is as time moves on as it has been over the past 20 years, that the modern generation of teens and 20 somethings go onto mid life that homophobia will eventually become a thing of the past? I just don't see this happening...but we can hope I guess.

Something to leave you thinking about for next time.

Till next time....

The second post is always the hardest I feel, after my first post it was new and exciting but to follow up is proving quite difficult...let's hope this gets a little better.

I have just got back from my (officially) third date with Guy*, as you may remember from last weeks posting I had a conundrum deciding whether I could get over the fact that this guy had horrible teeth? After meeting with Guy* a few times and going on today's date I think I might just be getting over it. His personality is great, he is a gentleman and he is (very slowly) growing in confidence and getting to know me which, funnily enough, is really endearing. Although, we have now kissed on two seperate occasions, the first as I discussed last time sent my legs wobbling and cheeks looking as Red as a Taylor Swift album cover (excuse the pun). But this second time which happened today in the car as I was dropping him off home was a little different. I was hoping for a long and romantic kiss but it seemed rushed and to be honest a little disappointing. Now please tell me I am over reacting but has the passion already gone, did he not want to kiss me? Help please!!

On a new note I, like many other red blooded gay guys, occasionally enjoy jumping onto Grindr or one of the other such apps supposedly set up to help us meet up to socialize or more likely suck and/or fuck!! Although, as I have got a little older I like to think I have matured and that I look for more serious relationships and friends on Grindr than just a one night stand. Now as much I put this on my profile I still generally get the typical cock pictures or the older bears wanting to "show me their cave" (actual quote) which inevitably leads me to click the block button faster than a guy can say "want some fun?" No, I don't want fun and if my profile says I want a guy 18-30 I definitely don't want a guy who is 50 and can hardly see his penis over the beer belly he so kindly sends me a picture of!!! Now I am not saying this is everyone on the York Grindr scene, there are a few nice guys who seem pretty genuine, but I would like to put it to everyone to read someones profile and if you think you meet the brief then start a conversation. And if you start a conversation with someone don't keep hounding them with messages until you get a reply as it probably means your either fat/ugly or a mixture of the two!!

Whilst I have been writing this weeks post Guy* has tweeted me a message to say that he enjoyed our date today...and I've just had a text to ask me out again? How many dates before we are boyfriends? Do I wait for him to ask? So many questions!! What do you suggest as a good date round the York area? Or maybe something to avoid doing? I love to hear back from you about what you think of my blog, the good, the bad or the ugly? Comment and let me know what you would like my opinion on or even if I should just shut the hell up (hopefully not).

Till next time....

New beginnings....

Hello,

This is my first blog/ posting/ life altering rant so please be kind....I'm just trying something new!!

I tried to think of something intelligent to discuss but I thought I would discuss what I know, this is why I will tell you all about my life on a weekly basis, be it a new guy, betrayals, general feeling of guilt or how I feel about the latest in the ever changing state of celebrity!!  

Without (usually) trying I normally end up having some drama or bitchiness in my life. For example, I have met a new guy recently, for the purpose of this story I will call him Guy* (get it lol). Anyway, Guy is generally a nice guy, he is 29, handsome, interesting and has a good career, however he has really bad teeth!! Which for some reason really puts me off. Now I know what you are thinking, I do too, I am very Vain? But I don't think I am, I am a regular(ish) guy who likes to look good, take care of myself and after losing a lot of weight recently eat right. So I ask you, the reader of this rant (Thank you for reading by the way) am I being vain or am I right to worry about this? After all if a guy cannot look after his teeth will there be other, more scary, things to discover as I go deeper into the depths of Guy!! After our second date he plucked up the courage to go in for a kiss, which being honest made my legs turn to jelly and a little color come to my usually pale cheeks, basically I loved it!! Guy suggested a third date which I just can't seem to turn down, I feel lucky to have a guy want to date me and spend time with me but why can't I get over such superficial things like how his teeth look? What should I do?

Since coming out to most people I felt such a relief, this was over four years ago by the way, but as of yet I have never found the perfect guy to introduce to the family. Maybe Guy could be that guy? My past relationships have included a guy who couldn't keep it in his pants (arsehole*) and a guy who cried the first time we kissed (psycho boy*)!! There are others, but maybe I will open up about them later.

So...if you have read this first ever blog of mine I would like to Thank you!! I am obviously learning how to do this as I go but I feel that I can provide some insight into the "scene" of York dating which some other magazines and blogs just don't do!! If you have enjoyed this please comment and let me know what you think. I love to hear back from people and if you have any questions let me know?

Till next time...