No Guys Left!

Well if it wasn't sad enough that Sam Callahan got voted off the X Factor last weekend...I have officially got no Guy's left to have drama/ blog discussions about. Maybe it is Karma out to get me...Guy No 1 who I had the best kiss of my life with (as discussed in my last blog) felt that he didn't know what he wanted and thinks we should just leave it. Now, I don't know what you think but that is kind of like the "It's not you, it's me" line, I don't believe it for a second and think that I am not good enough. I am usually the dumper so to have this role reversal is confusing and making me doubt everything I know...ok maybe a slight exaggeration but o well!!

What do you think? Is it me, was I a terrible kisser? All these questions and frustrations only my blog to vent them to.

This happened last night by the way so I decide not to mope about so I got up bright and early to go to the gym (hot sweaty guys always cheer me up) and am looking to the future. I lost 5 and a half pounds this week and will be the brand new me in no time. Just got to resist the temptation of chocolate over Christmas. Who am I kidding, that's not gonna happen!!

I am reading Attitude magazine whilst writing this and stumbled upon the 'Table for Two' segment. For those who don't know, it's where two random guys are set up on a blind date and then they rate each other after. This particular edition has a rather cute but camp 31 year old hairdresser called Luke, he is definately my type, if a little too old but they set him up with a rather plump looking guy who just doesn't look that appealing. What do they expect? Although it does raise the question as to whether I am being too picky? Maybe I should choose a different type of guy? What do you think? I guess I'm never gonna find that Ryan Gosling look a like who just so happens to fancy me....I can hope.

My friend is currently in Thailand, having the time of her life by the way, but she is back next month. I can't wait to see her so I can finally tell someone about the drama in my life...apart from you guys of course.

Now just to finished a picture of Ryan Gosling...because who doesn't love a shirtless picture of this guy?

Till next time...

Oh and btw follow me on Twitter @yorksanonymous

Great kisser!!!

Another post and so much to talk about..life is never boring, I should definately have my own show lol

Well, let's start with Guy No 2, as I mentioned last time I had completely had enough of him, and felt slightly like punching him every time I saw him, therefore I felt it was time to let him down gently. I tried to do this through continuously saying I was busy, firstly he invited me to a fireworks party but said that I had plans to go to one with my sister, then he asked me to go round the night after for tea (he knew I had no plans as I had told him the week earlier, little tricker to get out of) but told him that I was feeling ill, then after he asked me again to meet up I finally had to come clean and tell him I thought it was best to stay friends!! Was this the easy way out? I kinda felt like I wanted to tell him the truth, to help him in the future perhaps, but I just decided to say I didn't think we were right and we should be friends. What do you think?? 

Next, Guy No 2, I am very excited!! Went on date number 3, he took me to an Italian restaurant just across the river called Piccalinos, it was a great meal with wine and chat and laughs, a perfect date,  it was raining when we got out and he held the umbrella he had brought up for us to shield me from the drizzle (I'm sold lol)!! We got back to my car and I offered him a lift home but he politely declined...then it came to the goodbye!! His bright blue eyes looked right into mine and then his perfect lips came towards mine, I obliged to his demands and went in for the kiss, it starts off slow but then he grabs my face and shows his passion, I feel something flutter inside me and know this is how it's meant to be and the best first kiss ever!! 

After our kiss I convince him to accept my offer of a lift so we can spend more time together and then when we get to his we have a goodnight kiss...perfect!! 

So this seems like it's going well but he hasn't really text me much this week, he is busy with work but I would have thought that he would want to text me more...what do you think? Should I be worried, was I a shit kisser? I am now trying to play it cool as we have arranged to meet this weekend but I really just want a text from him, i will keep on waiting in anticipation!!

This week I've been on a new diet and fitness regime, I need to look good for my new guy, I have a target of 14lbs in 6 weeks and want to look like this guy by Christmas....happy perving guys :)

Till next time....

Living precariously!! Can I get any more serious!!

It has been a long and eventful week since my last blog which seems like ages ago.


As I mentioned last time I was dating two seperate guys, Guy No 1 and No 2 (I know my imaginative names astound you lol) and I had a date with Guy No 1 planned for the weekend. We met casually at the fountain in York, outside the Disney shop for those who don't know. Yet again, I had to decide where to go (this frustrates me), ending up at a local pub where No 1 ordered me a coffee, which was sweet as he didn't need to ask what I wanted (showed he'd been listening). The date flew as we chatted about our interests and got to know each other more, I start to think about what would happen if things went further with us, could I actually be in a relationship with him? After our coffee we decide to go for a little walk where things start to go weird, he tells me he needs to go looking round charity shops for his Halloween costume. Now not that there is anything wrong with this (although totally not my scene) I don't think this is something you do on a date, what do you think? I think he notices my disappointment and quickly decides to go for something to eat. The date ended well.....

The night to meet Guy No 2 came last night, I was really looking forward to this date as we had history, we knew each other and I really liked him at college. He texts me he is on his way, my insides twitter with excitement, I make sure my hair is perfect, smell like a posh boutique and have obviously flossed and breath minted (just in case haha). We meet and he is just as I remember but a lot hotter and more stubble!! We decide to go for some food after keeping the night pretty casual, a nice casual restaurant where we can chat and get to know each other, well that was the plan!! I don't know if he was nervous but he would not stop talking all night, even during mouth fulls (eew) and I don't think he asked me 1 question all night!! I like the guy he and he seems fun but I don't know if I can be with a guy who is more needy than myself!! After dropping him off though I really wanted to snog him, which must be a good sign, or maybe it was just so I could shut him up for a few seconds?

Since date number 1 we haven't really spoken that much, not texting since Tuesday so I kinda feel that may answer my question but what do you think? Do you think Guy No 2 was just nervous or should I ditch him? Who should I pick, or should I just continue until I have made my mind up, or my mind is made up for me? Help please, I just don't know if I can trust my self to make the right decision right now?


Ah....just got a text from Guy No 1 asking how I am, maybe its not over between us?

Till next time.......

Long time no speak!! New dilema eeek!!

The plan to write one of these weekly completely went out of the window, since it was May I last wrote one lol (Apologies if anyone was getting their weekly fix of my life)


Since I last wrote me and Guy* have ended (don't all cry at once), something to do with us being incompatible? To be honest he just beat me to it as I was going to end it the day later....don't like to be beaten to it!!!

So really you guys have not missed much in the last couple of months, however a new situation has occurred which inspires my new blog post. Dating two guys at the same time?? What do I do?

Basically, I met up with the first guy, Guy No 1 (I might tell you his name later on), and we went on a great first date. We had so much in common and he was really cute and definately the best looking guy I've been on a date with. I still managed to play it cool even though I just wanted to kiss his delicious looking lips. Then all of a sudden Guy No 2 adds me on facebook, he is a guy I met at college and (this was before my body transformation) we both never had the confidence to speak to each other. I've arranged to meet Guy No 1 this weekend for drinks but also arranged drinks with Guy No 2 next week. Is this wrong? Am I hurting the guys or will I eventually end up hurting myself? I know I will eventually have to make a choice but I somehow get the feeling that what I am doing is wrong, but maybe this is just how gay guys have to do it to make sure we get the right guy?


What do you think? Am I in the wrong and should end it or should I just see what happens? Please comment and let me know what you think and hopefully come back next week to find out what I do and how the dates go??

Till next time....