What to do??

Just to start my blog I wanted to pay tribute to Nelson Mandela....such sad news to hear about such a great man and person that has made such a difference to the World. My thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends in this difficult period. However, at times like this I think it's great to celebrate his life and the changes he made. If you don't know much about him take a little time to research him, he fought all his life for what he believed in and to help everyone else...of his life he mentioned that he would want on his tombstone that he did what he could do to achieve the purpose he was put on this earth for. I really like this and makes me question what I am here for, what I should be doing? Do you know what your purpose is? I would not consider myself religious but I like the thought that there is something after death and how we are never truly gone. Although, what ever happens the legacy of Nelson Mandela will last forever and what he has brought to the world will be remembered. 

Now, I have not wrote this blog for a few weeks and the reason is because nothing exciting or blog worthy has happened...my inspiration was not there and I've been caught up with work. However, a recent revelation happened the other day which was rather awkward. Guy, the first bloke I wrote about it my first blog article, read the blog and put two and two together and came to the right conclusion. Resulting in a few tweets and angry texts..I can kinda understand it as I wasn't exactly kind or discreet lol!! However, after apologies where exchanged and we started chatting again I kind of realised I missed it...I missed him!! Now, there was definately problems in the relationship but I kind of want to see if we could make it work again. What do you think? Does the second time around ever work? With Christmas coming up I'm not sure if I just want a boyfriend for the winter or I actually want to be with him....I need help guys?

Christmas is coming up and I'm very excited....not just the actual day but having some time off and just catching up with friends and family. I feel a lot more mature recently and am just looking forward to spending time with my friends over christmas...the Christmas diet is definately not going to be kept to haha!!

So what's on your christmas list this year? A new winter jumper, a hot new guy or just time with your loved ones? I'm getting very soppy due to the time of the year but I'm sure in the New Year I will be back to my usual bitchy self.

Make sure you follow me on twitter @yorksanonymous and comment on the blog...I love the feedback.

Till next time.....

No Guys Left!

Well if it wasn't sad enough that Sam Callahan got voted off the X Factor last weekend...I have officially got no Guy's left to have drama/ blog discussions about. Maybe it is Karma out to get me...Guy No 1 who I had the best kiss of my life with (as discussed in my last blog) felt that he didn't know what he wanted and thinks we should just leave it. Now, I don't know what you think but that is kind of like the "It's not you, it's me" line, I don't believe it for a second and think that I am not good enough. I am usually the dumper so to have this role reversal is confusing and making me doubt everything I know...ok maybe a slight exaggeration but o well!!

What do you think? Is it me, was I a terrible kisser? All these questions and frustrations only my blog to vent them to.

This happened last night by the way so I decide not to mope about so I got up bright and early to go to the gym (hot sweaty guys always cheer me up) and am looking to the future. I lost 5 and a half pounds this week and will be the brand new me in no time. Just got to resist the temptation of chocolate over Christmas. Who am I kidding, that's not gonna happen!!

I am reading Attitude magazine whilst writing this and stumbled upon the 'Table for Two' segment. For those who don't know, it's where two random guys are set up on a blind date and then they rate each other after. This particular edition has a rather cute but camp 31 year old hairdresser called Luke, he is definately my type, if a little too old but they set him up with a rather plump looking guy who just doesn't look that appealing. What do they expect? Although it does raise the question as to whether I am being too picky? Maybe I should choose a different type of guy? What do you think? I guess I'm never gonna find that Ryan Gosling look a like who just so happens to fancy me....I can hope.

My friend is currently in Thailand, having the time of her life by the way, but she is back next month. I can't wait to see her so I can finally tell someone about the drama in my life...apart from you guys of course.

Now just to finished a picture of Ryan Gosling...because who doesn't love a shirtless picture of this guy?

Till next time...

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The drama continues...

What a week it's been, sorry for the delay in sending this new blog, but as much as I would love to just do nothing else I have got a job to contend with!!

So to start with Guy No 1 hasn't really text me since last time, I haven't text him either. I guess it's kind of a who can wait the longest without texting game, I think I'm gonna lose as I really want to text him!! 

Although, I have had Guy No 2 to keep me occupied....where do I start. Now after out first date where he basically didn't take a breath throughout our date, I thought he deserved a second chance. I decided to invite him over (I only get the house to myself every so often)...big mistake!! Firstly, he comes dressed in a women's witches outfit, not reli into the whole cross dressing thing (not judging lol)!! Then, after he gets changed he pounces on the sofa, feet up (no socks BTW) and feels the need to regale me with the time he stole a apple pie in a shop and then also nicked a lightbulb because he couldn't afford it!! Maybe if he didn't pack his credit card with useless shit he didn't need he could have!! You can sense my anger, I just can't stand this guy anymore. Any desire to sleep with this guy quickly disintegrates and I slowly show him the door (after he gives me a goodbye treat, obviously lol)!! 

After this disaster I decide to text Guy Número 1, it can't get any worse right?? It all looks good so far and we have arranged a time to meet this week. I'm really looking forward to it.

As I write this, in Starbucks, waiting for my friend to bring me a gingerbread latte I hold out hope I might have a boyfriend for Christmas, but I am starting to realise that it ain't the most important thing, i would prefer to be alone than end up with a guy who drives me insane!! 

Btw how do I cancel plans to go to a fireworks party with Guy No 2 in a nice way?? 

Till next time...

Living precariously!! Can I get any more serious!!

It has been a long and eventful week since my last blog which seems like ages ago.


As I mentioned last time I was dating two seperate guys, Guy No 1 and No 2 (I know my imaginative names astound you lol) and I had a date with Guy No 1 planned for the weekend. We met casually at the fountain in York, outside the Disney shop for those who don't know. Yet again, I had to decide where to go (this frustrates me), ending up at a local pub where No 1 ordered me a coffee, which was sweet as he didn't need to ask what I wanted (showed he'd been listening). The date flew as we chatted about our interests and got to know each other more, I start to think about what would happen if things went further with us, could I actually be in a relationship with him? After our coffee we decide to go for a little walk where things start to go weird, he tells me he needs to go looking round charity shops for his Halloween costume. Now not that there is anything wrong with this (although totally not my scene) I don't think this is something you do on a date, what do you think? I think he notices my disappointment and quickly decides to go for something to eat. The date ended well.....

The night to meet Guy No 2 came last night, I was really looking forward to this date as we had history, we knew each other and I really liked him at college. He texts me he is on his way, my insides twitter with excitement, I make sure my hair is perfect, smell like a posh boutique and have obviously flossed and breath minted (just in case haha). We meet and he is just as I remember but a lot hotter and more stubble!! We decide to go for some food after keeping the night pretty casual, a nice casual restaurant where we can chat and get to know each other, well that was the plan!! I don't know if he was nervous but he would not stop talking all night, even during mouth fulls (eew) and I don't think he asked me 1 question all night!! I like the guy he and he seems fun but I don't know if I can be with a guy who is more needy than myself!! After dropping him off though I really wanted to snog him, which must be a good sign, or maybe it was just so I could shut him up for a few seconds?

Since date number 1 we haven't really spoken that much, not texting since Tuesday so I kinda feel that may answer my question but what do you think? Do you think Guy No 2 was just nervous or should I ditch him? Who should I pick, or should I just continue until I have made my mind up, or my mind is made up for me? Help please, I just don't know if I can trust my self to make the right decision right now?


Ah....just got a text from Guy No 1 asking how I am, maybe its not over between us?

Till next time.......